Reflection on: vow to abstain post

I spent some time today thinking about my shadow's part in my last post. Given the theme of my blog I'm making it a practice to look closely at each post and try to reveal my shadow. Only by identifying my shadow can I begin to learn from it.

What was my shadow in my last post?

• show off (I'm on stage. Look at me! You are reading this and paying attention to me.)
• surprise or in your face (Hopefully a shock that will make you want to see what I will do or say next.)

Those are perhaps the shadow(s) behind the post, but what's the shadow behind the content...

What do I get out of an exemplary performance of (A big thanks in advance to Kid Rock) Yo-da-lin in the Valley? Pleasure certainly but what, if any, is the shadow.

Do I secretly desire to be submissive? To worship even? To give and give and give expecting nothing in return but a pat on the head or a slap in the face. Would I really be satisfied by either?

Maybe it's the wine I've drank but...
going downtown, scoring three home runs in a row and getting slapped in the face sounds hot right now.