Been a long time, since I left you, without a dope beat to step to...

Feeling heavy lately. When things get quite and calm, it's alway there waiting for me. Still and heavy depression. I try to keep moving keep things loud but when it's quite it comes back. Always.

Being bipolar I know it will pass. I know I wont feel this way in a few hours or tomorrow. But right now I want to cut my throat. Not ear to ear just tonsil to tonsil.

Please don't be alarmed, this feeling or thought isn't new, it's been with me all my life. Finally I share it with you.

Again being bi-polar I know it will pass, but finally I have chosen to share it with you.