What a terrible day

Again I did not feel well, yet had the extreme desire to do something, anything. Anything other than what I was doing... Trying to find something to watch on television. I of course, would have loved to spend the day on the internet but felt like that behavior would have led to an argument. So I tried to be available and helpful and spent a entire day bored and depressed.

I won't bore you with the boring details, here are the dull-lights...

1. Argued (or maybe discussed) with my wife about religion. I am buddhist/atheist and she wants to cling to her christian roots more so now that we have a child. My dooms day shadow can see it now. "Dad, why don't you go to church? Dad, are you going to go to hell?"

I haven't seen a religion that says that practicing other religions is alright. Nor have a found one to say that practicing no religion is alright. For their own self interest they all pretty much say that they are right and everyone else is wrong. There is no recommendation for people to go out and explore other beliefs.

She wants for our son to be raised with a belief system.

WTF. I must not have taken an outspoken enough stand before we got married. Judging from her reaction, I think she wished she could walk away. It's a bit too late for that.

Maybe I should have went to Colorado and met that crunch buddhist women my former roommate met at that retreat.

So what I am going to do about it?
I am going to stick to my beliefs and develop a spiritual practice that I can pass on to my son.


2.I watched Chip Foose on two different auto shows today. Not that I think I could ever be Chip Foose but I really want to be in the car world. I am mechanically inclined however I lack a big dose of self confidence required to get the ball rolling. What ball? I would like to buy and restore cars.

Of course every plan has steps.

1. Rebuild lightly wrecked cars
2. Restore a rust bucket
3. build a kit car

4. And then maybe, just maybe, build a custom car. Like Eleanor or the Mach 5


Being in the computer world I know that just being in the computer world means you hear more and learn more than any outsider can learn in their spare time. To really be the tech world you just have to be here. The car world is the same.

So what am I going to do about it?
I just looked up an adult education class in the area. I can take a tune-up class in April. Maybe that would give me nuts to get started.